Friday, February 20, 2009

Dying for Truth

Talk about Unexpected....

Here was the plan three days ago:

I was going to grab a rickshaw to the Bus Stand in the Village and then take a Public Bus to Tiruvnnamalei to grab my suitcase, say Hi to friends and then return to Oneness University the next day to continue working on the web site!

Here is what actually happened three days ago:

I went to the gate to get a rickshaw and a taxi was there. I ended up taking the taxi all the way to Tiru instead of the bus stand. I arrived in Tiru, picked up my stuff, saw my friends, tried to leave the next day, but my heart told me I needed to stay. I decided to leave anyway, so I got all my things together, but then my intuition said you MUST stay no matter what.

So I stayed and am currently attending a retreat called Dying for Truth! It is about how to Awaken during the death process just in case it doesn't happen in life. It is also learning how to be with people that are dying and also with their families. It has been very beautiful so far!

I also received an amazing massage today and life is pretty GREAT overall! I have absolutely stopped making plans, because they are useless and just cause more problems than good. When you really live in the moment and take your cues from Guidance it is pretty hard to make any plans and follow through with them!

We all have guidance, inner guidance and what I call Universal Signs. Inner guidance sometimes can get skewed by what we want to happen or what we want to do. Universal Signs are signs in that the Universe throws at you. If you really become aware you will see them all around you. These are not influenced by your mind or desires, so if you are having a tough time discerning what is guidance and what is your mind, take a look at the Universal Signs. They will always point you in the right direction. The best part is you can actually never go in the wrong direction, even when it seems like it, it is all happening for a perfect reason! The best thing you can do is become very comfortable with the unexpected and learn to let go of always needing to know what will happen and control what will happen! This will allow you to flow with Divine guidance and then although you may not have a clue what will happen in an hour, let alone next week I promise you it will be an exciting life. Not only that Divine Guidance always leads to more awareness, more truth, more love, and more growth! That my friends is a beautiful thing......Be Well and be In Joy!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Sometimes you just have to....

SLEEP! The energy on this campus of Oneness University is something you have to experience to believe. It is such high energy that there are many nights that I only sleep three to four hours if at all. Well today my body finally overpowered the energy and I pretty much slept all day. It feels good to do that every once in awhile! I just got done having dinner in the cafeteria. It wasn't quite like the pizza from yesterday that's for sure! I connected with a beautiful couple from New Zealand who have dedicated there life to helping others, it's so beautiful. There are people here on campus right now from all over the world dedicated to doing the same from America, Russia, Scotland, UK, Thailand, Brazil, Kazakhstan, Australia, New Zealand, Uruguay, Canada, Germany, Chile and more. They have one goal. To teach people how to become at peace and experience causeless joy no matter what is going on around them. Unfortunately, it seems like the times are getting tougher and some say times are about to get down right nasty. I hope that's not the case, however I do feel things need to get shaken up a bit here on Earth. So let's see what happens...

I know this that is it possible to be experiencing so much joy that it doesn't matter if you are rich or poor, in a mansion or on the streets, in love or by yourself, healthy or sick. Instead of trying to control all of our outside circumstances which are literally controlled by millions of factors, I feel to teach people how to get themselves in a space internally in which the peace and joy simply overflows. How nice would it be to not be dependant on circumstance to be happy? Circumstances are always changing, some times are good and sometimes are not so good. This is the nature of life, the ebb and flow. Over the past few years I have been exposed to many teachers and teachings that all point to this experience. In the past six weeks I have actually experienced this first hand and the freedom that it gives is like nothing else that I have experienced.

I want to share with people all that I have learned. This is one reason for writing my book, but the other is to show that there is another side to life that is so fascinating and brings so much joy that isn't dependent on anything and its available to anyone that is looking. I am not talking about airy fairy stuff, simply to access an energy that by it's nature is peace, love and joy! The first step is to really look inside and look at the relationships in your life. Are you at peace with those closest or are you in conflict? We want peace on earth, but we don't have peace in our own homes or families. This is step one! The best thing you can do is to really put yourself in their shoes and try to experience what they were experiencing and the only way I know to do this is through the Oneness Blessing. You ask the Divine to give you the other person's experience before you receive the Blessing and let grace do the rest. When you experience what the other is going through, basically walking a mile in anothers shoes then and only then can you fully understand why they were the way they were. If they caused you pain, it's because they were in deep pain them self. If they gave you joy, they were in joy themselves. To find Oneness Blessing Givers in your area go to

Saturday, February 14, 2009

What a beautiful day!

So if I just told you that I snarfed ( a word meaning ate really fast without breathing) down some pizza and then danced the night away to the heavy heart pounding music techno style with the beat of drums and accompanied instruments I bet the last place you would think I would be is an ashram in India. However that is exactly where I am. This unexpected journey always has beautiful and well yes.... unexpected twists and turns. I am currently in South India at an amazing place called Oneness University. It is a a place where people from all over the world from different religions and cultures come together to learn to find peace in their own lives, their families lives and the lives of all of humanity, to heal relationships and to expand their level of consciousness. More about Oneness later.....I am here volunteering for a new web site that will be launched soon.

I have been here in India since the first part of December. It is my third time here in as many years. If you would have told me 6 years ago when I was at the bar downing shots of Grand Marnier chased by 6 beers into my 300 pound body that I would be going to India three times in the next ten years I would have slapped you and asked you why you drank so much ; ) When I look back at the past four years I really wonder how my life became like a Hollywood Movie. It literally all started in a Bar in Arizona with a Capt Morgan in my hand. Who would have thunk it????? That was why it started as UNEXPECTED and has pretty much kept to that theme ever since.

I am in the process here in India of finishing a book about the last few years of my life in which it has literally been transformed in every area. Divine Grace has been running the show and I have slowly but surely over the years given up the reigns as hard as that has been. back to the here and now otherwise known as today, I was talking to a great friend of mine earlier, she suggested I make my book an e-book forgoing the traditional arduous paper book process. It was interesting that I had not thought of this option, but I guess I was so stuck on that I would have many publishers dying for my work and they would be bidding for my story. Hey it could happen ; ) My main goal is to get the story out to as many people as possible as quickly as possible....So when she said E-book and explained the trend in e-books I got an immediate yes inside. Within a couple hours I had this blog and a few possible domain names purchased for the books web site.

I had a couple of great friends online helping me narrow down the website. Once the process was over I was called to go to a homa, which is an ancient vedic fire ceremony. The celestial gods and goddesses are contacted through the means of agni, the ancient fire. The intent of the homa was for success in worldly ventures that spread the news of anything that helps to reduce human suffering. You have to experience a proper Homa, before you can understand the immense power that that have. The Divine Presence is so thick in the room that even the most dense people energetically feel it.

All I know is that it was not a coincidence that this homa was performed on the day that I spontaneously decided to launch this venture. It was not a coincidence but the entire day was Unexpected...hence going along with the major theme of my life the past few years which has been an Unexpected Journey! I had my bags backed to catch a bus to Tiruvannamalei this morning, which is a beautiful little town 5 hours south of here. I need to go to get the other half of my stuff , because once again it is totally Unexpected that I would be staying at this ashram for 6 weeks helping out. As you get to know me you will understand and see this theme with me more and more and you will see also how grateful to the Divine inside of me I truly am that has actually graced me with enough love and awareness to actually let go of the wheel. This allows me to be grateful for the unexpected instead of upset. There is a freedom in that that every ancient tradition has spoken about. With that thought, I will leave you for today! Infinite Salutations to the Eternal Divine within all beings....